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Random Rambles I: Freedom

21 Feb 2019

Hi, It's me. Maybe you know me and maybe you don't and maybe you stumbled upon this blog as like a major accident and you're running back in the completely…

So, if you’re not posting here anymore, where can I find you?

21 Jan 201821 Jan 2018

Hmmm... Good Question. In my last post I wrote I shall be moving onto different projects I just really want to stay anonymous, at least publicly. But if you really…

Hey, I know this may seem like the end, but it’s not.

2 Sep 2017

Hi everyone, long time no see! Basically this blog is on hiatus. I'm surprised I still get so many hits a day although I haven't written in months. See, I'm…

Don’t worry bout a thing and take pride in who you are!

14 Apr 201717 Apr 2017

We struggle No one expects you to be perfect Reality is frustrating Emotions can seem directed towards you when they are towards the situation (or at least should be) I…

Tefila post and life update

10 Apr 201710 Apr 2017

Ok so yeah. I know I said I would have this up but this break has been pretty hectic for me. I have been really depressed, like serious depression and…

2 Poems from sem (Going Home +another)

29 Mar 2017

Hi guys, here's some poetry from seminary. The bad, the good, we got it all. ;) I have 2 more songs I want to put up in the next few…

What is hashkafa? Why does it matter?

19 Mar 201729 Mar 2017

Hey everyone! I know my posts are sporadic, but I'm promising you a post by the end of the next week on tfila. Prayer is a topic I've promised to…

Update on my life (Emotions, Sem, and more!)

27 Feb 201722 Mar 2017

Hi everyone! Long time no speak...I was beginning to think that this blog had been ignored since well, I had sorta been ignoring it for the past bit but when…

On Guarding our minds, promises, and answers. (A RANT)

18 Dec 201629 Mar 2017

I have so much to say...but no time to write. I really should force myself like to write posts on the bus in the morning. Traffic here is awful. Anyway…

If you aren’t a creator you don’t exist! (On shabbaton, change, and self forgiveness)

7 Dec 2016

So I was sitting here trying to figure out what to write...and I'm looking through my comments and see I've been given a blogger award. Thanks JewishtThoughts blog for nominating…

Who are you? (Becoming a creator)

18 Nov 2016

Hi everyone! Here is my post, as promised! Who are you? We made are made up of so many different parts. Hashem has given you so many gifts, talents, abilities.…

First 2 months of Seminary in a nutshell

15 Nov 201615 Nov 2016

Hi everyone! I'm so sorry, I never expected to be this busy with seminary! I promise I'll be posting a real interesting post this friday bezrat hashem, and perhaps even…

First Impressions

8 Oct 2016

Hi everyone! Seminary is wonderful! I'm so happy Hashem has given this chance to me, to make myself whoever I want to be. That's what I have been doing. I…

The fault is in the stars

17 Sep 2016

The Unexpected Makes us feel threatened I'm seeking the one I call me Preceding victory Got dash quickly I'm the only woman alive you see For the life I mourn,…

Mumble Jumble

1 Sep 20161 Sep 2016

Trying so hard yelling at my head discontentment, resentment for no reason that I comprehend when all should be good I feel at wits end Its raining screams tonight got…

My Emunah Expirience

23 Aug 2016

This is the post I've been dreading to make but at the same time very excited to write! I wanted to write about this so much, yet wasn't exactly sure…

Switch of Positivity

16 Aug 201616 Aug 2016

One of the things I have been working this summer  on is being positive. Being only positive, and seeing everything with an ayin tovah. I know you have heard it…

And I’m back!

16 Aug 201616 Aug 2016

And I'm back! Did you guys miss me? I must apologize from dissapearing for such a long while...but at least I'm back now, I'm alive, well, and yeah! Wow...has it…

Broken into whole

18 Jun 201618 Jun 2016

"Only when you recognize and mourn the loss of broken dreams can you move past them" I thought that this year would be amazing. It was. Just in a completely…

What does it mean to be a good person? (Poem)

28 May 201628 May 2016

This world is worth dust yet it all means so much to me and I want to start crying because nothing makes sense to be here We're all running after…

A teen’s guide to surviving high school

8 May 2016

Okay, so I've been waiting for the right moment to write. It usually hits me once a week, an idea I have been thinking of a lot recently sometimes with…

Overthinking it all

7 Apr 2016

Hey all! After so many depressing posts you guys deserve something uplifting and awesome. Check this out, I think this video is AMAZING! It's gone Jewish viral-62,000 views in 6 days.…

Memories

30 Mar 2016

Memories The ones thing that stays when all else leaves Hello all! Hadassi here, I've had an interesting night, how about you guys? I want to put excerpt (that means…

2 YEARS!!!

25 Mar 201614 Mar 2016

Hello world! It's been 2 years since I got this zany idea to make a blog. 2 years since the day I made a new email, thought of a name,…

Where is me/Waldo?

24 Mar 201617 Jul 2016

  I don't know about you but I grew up with a book called where is waldo? It's series where  you must find Waldo (the one in the feature photo)…

Ideas to Uplift your Purim

23 Mar 2016

Hey everyone! I have a bit of time to write a quick post about...Purim (again) okay, this is more of a spiritual post rather than a monologue of my life…

Some shout outs

21 Mar 201621 Mar 2016

Hey everyone! I wanted to give a shout out to this new program called Middos Challenges. It's this awesome program where every month you work on a different middah through…

Self Esteem

14 Mar 2016

Hey everyone! You are getting many posts this week. I have just discovered I have low self esteem. YAY me! Turns out over 80% of the world has low self…

Purim, masks, and school

14 Mar 201614 Mar 2016

Hello all. This is just going to be a long weird post about Purim and some other stuff! Purim is always interesting by me. 5 years ago-it was my last…

Why are people ask stupid questions? (A scientific rant and hypothesizes)

13 Mar 201613 Mar 2016

I am so annoyed right now. So I will now show you a picture journal of my feelings :) Why do people ask stupid questions? For example: Hypothesis 1- Hashem…

Point of no return (Dear sister)

10 Mar 2016

This was just on my mind and I had to really get it out. I'll explain more afterwards, just read for now :) Dear my fellow Jew, my sister: I'm…

Black to Pink to Yellow

1 Mar 20162 Mar 2016

From here I can only go up (only go up) From black to pink to yellow On the top of my lungs I'll bellow From here I can only go…

Self conscious? You mean G-d conscious.

27 Feb 2016

Sorry I haven't written but my mind feels like a big blank. I think I've started this post about 5 times so far and kept deleting what I wrote because…

And you’ll hear me sing (POEM)

15 Feb 201615 Feb 2016

Don't know if I'll have to fight this forever Don't know if it's got an end Don't know what tomorrow will bring Don't know if I'll ever understand But I…

Questions on life, Creativity types, and highs-A RANT

12 Feb 201612 Feb 2016

Why is life so unfair? I have been talking about this idea with so many people recently and it's really on my mind. Hear me out a bit guys- you…

50 questions

1 Feb 2016

Hey all! I saw this on some other sites, I know I have been blogging for about 2 years now and you guys know all about my struggles, my life,…

Expectations and stuff about me

1 Feb 2016

Hello all my dear readers! I have gotten quite a few emails since my post on shabbaton asking how it went. I'm happy to tell you guys that it went…

The price you pay

23 Jan 201626 Jan 2016

Hey everyone! How are you getting through the long winter? It's freezing, no?  During the long cold winter we all seem to be frozen to our old habits. We get…

Insecurities and shabbaton

16 Jan 201617 Jul 2016

I'm scared for shabbaton. I'm scared I will get overwhelmed. I'm scared I'll do something stupid. I'm scared...that I'll be alone. It's take a lot of courage to type this…

How do you feel today?

12 Jan 201613 Jan 2016

How are you feeling today? A typical reply from a frum teenage girl would probably be- "good, baruch hashem". Perhaps if you know the questioner a bit better your reply…

Respect Rant

6 Jan 20166 Jan 2016

I first want to thank the Lakewood Scoop for interviewing me in their wonderful newspaper. You can check out the interview here. I also want to share a really wonderful online…

Point of our choosing +2 poems

29 Dec 201529 Dec 2015

Hashem makes everything perfect, just for you. There is a posuk that if we all took our lives, experiences, troubles, joys, fears, dreams, and essence, put them in a bottle,…

Nonesense(Poem)

24 Dec 201528 Dec 2015

Here's a poem I wrote a few days ago off of my aliyah experience. Nonsense That's what's coming from their mouths. I recognize a word, or perhaps a letter once…

“Whatever you need is right here” On senior year’s joke, what we need, and what G-d wants

14 Dec 201528 Dec 2015

Hello all! Hope your chanukah went well. I first want to give a HUGE shout out to a new blogger who goes by Nafshi Beshe'elati. I was sent to her…

Chanuka segulos + poem-The sun will rise again

9 Dec 2015

To all my dear readers: Chanukah is here and with it tremendous possibilities. Here are some things I want to share with you! The Heiligeh Kedushas Levi says that each…

Which side would you be on?

3 Dec 20153 Dec 2015

Hey everyone! I want to wish all my wonderful readers a happy, wonderful, and amazing Chanukah! I had the zchus of being able to hear many many good classes about…

Still asking for a miracle

23 Nov 201528 Dec 2015

I think this is appropriate for the holiday coming up. I planned on writing some good old rants and thoughts but don't have time and the only thing coming out…

You know you want to read this…

16 Nov 201520 Jul 2017

Hey everyone! I want to share a poem from frumhangout.com http://frumhangout.com/index.php/articles/item/tzniyus?category_id=27 Tzniyus Wait- Don’t shut down just yet. No, really, don’t. Hear me out, Let me say something first -…

Protected: Fire with Fire (*Personal* story + SONG!!!)

7 Nov 201517 Jul 2016

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Who is it really about? (+Poem)

1 Nov 20152 Nov 2015

There's about 10 people that I trust in my life But now they've split up into 2 groups and are having a fight about me, about me, about me and…

Nothing left inside of me (Poem)

30 Oct 201530 Oct 2015

Nothing left inside of me Want to lock myself in a room and never stop screaming But there's nothing left inside of me My energy is gone All my thoughts…

Korban To Hashem

27 Oct 201528 Dec 2015

Hey everyone! I want to share with you all some of the events from my day today. It's all about a girl named Elisheva*. During class today a paper was…

Smile and Daven

24 Oct 201528 Dec 2015

What is life? What is this present we are given each day and being told we can make something of it? Why are we given life? How should we use…

Media Explosion! What to do?

18 Oct 201528 Dec 2015

Hey everyone! I hope the adjustment back to school has been good for all you! It's hard to adjust back to school schedule. I decided I'm going to send in…

Fitting In

8 Oct 201528 Dec 2015

I so badly want to fit in. To be seen as everyone else So simply I'm not giving in Today I made a choice I want in I so badly…

Repeat (Song)

27 Sep 201528 Dec 2015

Chag Sameach everyone!! Here's a song I wrote last week- it's not very optimistic but I wasn't feeling very optimistic last week. Moods are haywire by me ;) When will…

When one of your BFF’s gets engaged

18 Sep 201528 Dec 2015

I guess I have mentioned this discreetly through a past few posts, but never really just told you guys. She has been engaged for 3 weeks already but it never…

Cuz that’s the beauty and depth of the Torah and Hashem.

12 Sep 201528 Dec 2015

I've been really nervous about Rosh Hashana. Everyone has something different to say, but not matter what I seem to be wrong. So I stopped trying to have one answer…

CHANGE (Poem)

5 Sep 201528 Dec 2015

CHANGE I'm starting to get used to the idea- that things are starting to change it's a little now, but its only the beginning of the game Life stops for…

What ELUL is really about

29 Aug 201528 Dec 2015

CONFUSION Grabbing too much losing all attaining nothing overwhelmed by responsibilities trying too hard projects, relationships trying to be better but not getting anywhere at the same time-bored cold, and…

Ideas to get you into Elul

23 Aug 201528 Dec 2015

Hello everybody! Hope you are enjoying your last week or two of vacation! Because, were suddenly going to have a run in with reality in 3, 2, 1- CRASH It's…

Between the paths (Poem)

12 Aug 201528 Dec 2015

How can I return If I promised I wouldn't run-yet ran. How can I come For there's no words inside of me. How can I raise my eyes If I…

Responsibility Rant.

12 Aug 201528 Dec 2015

Hey everyone! I hope your summer is going great! Baruch Hashem I am bust doing stuff. I am working on finishing my book, and it's possible my very own first…

The last entry (an alternative ending to “Dancing in the Dark”)

6 Aug 201528 Dec 2015

Hey all! I want to share something new with you! I know a lot of my posts are ideas, parables, poems, and inspiration...but I like writing stories and stuff too.…

Won’t let me go (poem)

29 Jul 201528 Dec 2015

Pictures Smiling plastic Barbie smiles Cuz the world is just grand is it not? While sadness overwhelmes my entire being And won't let me go And won't let me go…

Inspire someone and Camp thoughts

23 Jul 201528 Dec 2015

Hey everybody! I just came back from one of the most amazing experiences of my life. My camp. I have no words to explain my feelings right now. It was…

Facing the past

24 Jun 201528 Dec 2015

Facing my past. Who I was. Who I hope I'm not anymore. Of struggles past. People lost to time. Of my mistakes. Of my innocence. Which was taken in an…

Summer- big and small

22 Jun 201528 Dec 2015

Hey all my lovely readers and fans! I hope you all have a great summer. I will be out with no web access till late July. I hope to come…

Greatness and Support (And a few announcements)

15 Jun 201520 Jul 2017

This song "Greatness" is stuck in my head and I just have to share it. It ties up a whole bunch of things I wanna say perfectly, so read through…

Invisible

7 Jun 201528 Dec 2015

Sometimes you can all give over your feelings through music. That's how I feel now. I feel invisble. In real life I'm I no one. Another nameless face struggling. And…

Fat and Spirituality- What is going higher?

27 May 201529 Dec 2015

What does it mean to go higher spiritually? Does it mean saying extra tehilim (Psalms) in between classes? Does it mean davening (Praying) 3 times a day like the men…

Letter to a dear friend

19 May 201529 Dec 2015

Life is so confusing. As I lay on the grass, stare at the stars, I ask my friend why. To my dear friend, The yetzer hara is so evil. Makes…

Freeing Yourself/Future Rant

3 May 201528 Dec 2015

Hey everyone! How are you all doing? I'd love to hear from any of you guys! Anyway, here's we go! I'm scared. I must admit it's scary thinking about the…

Poems

26 Apr 201529 Dec 2015

Mishmash of what's in my head seems there's no ending where am I heading? Traveling, million miles flying, billion dials confused where are my tools? Gotta ask Hashem for help,…

Lo Amus Ki Echyeh

19 Apr 201528 Dec 2015

Isn't Hallel beautiful? There is such a special feeling about it, I can't explain it. Haven you ever listened closely to the words? It may feel as if they are…

Dreaming and Fighting

11 Apr 201528 Dec 2015

This is me. I am Hadassi. I dream. I fight. Welcome to my world. Check out my new: You wanna know who I am page https://frumgirlmusings.wordpress.com/about/ I like my blog. I…

Happy

1 Apr 201528 Dec 2015

Happy. What is happy. Happy is isn't a shortcut. You can't get it from a freind You can't buy it either-So what does it mean to be happy? Being you.…

Breaking Free

29 Mar 201528 Dec 2015

I feel locked in a cage trapped and  wishing someone to blame But complaining won't help me from these weights please set me free Shackled with chains stuck with bars on…

Out in the Soccer feild

22 Mar 201529 Dec 2015

I'm sure you all heard about the family from NY and the fire. Connecting this to last week's post. Hashem commanded us NOT to take on kabbalos or extra things…

Finding my new angle + a FULL song! – PRISM!

15 Mar 201529 Dec 2015

Prism- So pretty, colors and feelings Stories and dreams- capture me Ropes binding, knots drawing Attracted like magnets That's how it was meant to be Suddenly dull Magic no more Light…

What are you? Extrovert or introvert?

12 Mar 201529 Dec 2015

Kay, here's a so un-musing like post but this was what was on my mind! I see you sighing. Ya, I know you have taken like 20 million tests about…

YOU ARE AMAZING!

8 Mar 201528 Dec 2015

 Hey everyone! I just wanted to tell you... That I know you are working really hard.You are really trying. You are able to look back and say You are able…

WHY?!?!? (Plus a poem- “Why can’t the whole world be good?”)

2 Mar 201528 Dec 2015

Why?!?! I think this to myself so many times today. Why?!?! I think about it when someone asks how my father is doing. Why?!?! I think about it when I…

Fighting Ourselves

15 Feb 201529 Dec 2015

I remember mentioning in quite a few places that I would write a post on this idea. Here I mentioned it. Anyway, the idea is that in life we are…

Gevuros- Bringing back the dead? (Shemonei Esrei Musing Part 3)

11 Feb 201529 Dec 2015

I know I haven't written recently, but I am sick, stuck at home :( and haven't managed to get on the computer long enough to write a full post! I…

Struggling to keep up, but being there for myself

3 Feb 201529 Dec 2015

So I was sitting on the bus today. With the music of 'Hashem Melech' blasting in my ears. Recently I've been going through a hard time. I haven't been able…

I am a very _________ girl

1 Feb 201531 Dec 2015

Hey everyone! I finally finished my last test last week! B"H I have no idea how in the world I survived, some of you try doing you tests in hebrew!!!…

Study and Chizuk tips

24 Jan 201531 Dec 2015

Hey ya'll! I'm on the run here, I did six tests last week, and have plenty more this week! I am super busy and my writing is suffering! In case…

Sim Shalom: What is peace? (Shemonei Esrei Musing Part 2)

17 Jan 201528 Oct 2015

Hey everyone! I am sorry I do not write to often, but I feel silly. This blog is meant to be on IMPORTANT things I feel about life, if there's…

Dreamers

10 Jan 201528 Oct 2015

I know I haven't written much, but truthfully, lately I feel awful. I dunno, it's part of being a teen I suppose. But it's terribly annoying! I sent in a…

Refa’ainu: Broken but Whole (Shemonei Esrei Musing Part 1

27 Dec 201431 Dec 2015

Hey everyone!!! Here's a new Series!!! My Shemonei Esrie Musings! Each post I will take another Bracha. What do you think about during the brachah or Refa'ainu in Shemone Esrei?…

Don’t let your flame die

19 Dec 201428 Dec 2015

I always like Chanukah. Being a kid, I got a present every single night. But now were older, and Chanukah is meant to be a lot more than just presents.…

What is Belief?

12 Dec 201414 Jan 2016

What is belief? Why do we need it? Last year I went through a really messed up year, crazy actually. I found myself, G-d, and figured out what belief was.…

Mi Shemamin Lo Mefached (Whoever believes is not afraid)

30 Nov 20147 Feb 2016

What is fear? Why are we scared? How can we make this fear go away? Many people in Israel have been scared, in the last month at least 100 people…

Poem- Hashem is testing me/Working on myself.

25 Nov 201425 Jan 2016

Crazy week. And guess what, it's only Tuesday! Hard to believe, no? I told you guys I would be putting up a poem and ever since I keep saying to…

Connected to Hashem

4 Nov 201425 Jan 2016

You love feedback Hadassi, so could you write on how to know if you are close to G-d? like, if someone never experienced it, they have nothing to learn from……

Do you really WANT?

27 Oct 201428 Oct 2015

It's all about how much you want something.... We've already had 2 or 3 classes with this idea in it. Yesterday, our teacher talked about wanting spriritual things. Like being…

How to make things work out

23 Oct 201430 Dec 2015

Things don't always work out, sometimes things don't go the way we want. High school is hard, school, the age, problems, life crises (involving hair, but also other more serious…

What is strong?

16 Oct 201430 Dec 2015

What is strong? I asked my friend this the other day. She told me she was trying to be strong, even though she is going through a rough time. But…

Letter from your Yetzer Hara

11 Oct 201430 Dec 2015

I just got it, and I thought it was beautiful and just had to share it! I never thought of the Yetzer Hara like this before....makes me feel much more…